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Sunday, November 14, 2010
Sleep
It's about time I sleep. I haven't stayed up this late since summer.
Please don't let anything disturb me. Give me a goodnight morning sleep and sweet dreams. :]
Please don't let anything disturb me. Give me a good
FINALLY
I finally finished transferring all my blogs to here. ._____.
How many hours did it take? 3-4 hours? *aughhhhh.
About 250 posts in one day... :3
How many hours did it take? 3-4 hours? *aughhhhh.
About 250 posts in one day... :3
A moment that has changed my life the most.
November 11, 2010
I might have to say when I moved to California. I definitely changed. Even though I was still small and can't remember what I was feeling when I moved here, it still made a big impact to my life. I always wonder "What if I didn't move? What would I be like now?" We didn't have any family members out here. There's practically no place I could go. I don't even have any childhood friends, unless my cousins count. I wasn't used to how my neighbors weren't my cousins. My siblings and I would go over to play almost everyday. Even they changed afterward when we moved. We would do almost everything together. I miss throwing rocks at other people's backyard with them. I miss playing dodge ball in the hallway with them. I miss jumping on the bed with them. I miss acting Captain Underpants plays with them. I miss playing video games with them. I miss biking with them. I miss building our own club house with them. I miss learning with them. I miss playing with them. I miss being with them. I miss growing up with them. I miss them. I miss all of my family members.
I miss my childhood back in Vegas.
I might have to say when I moved to California. I definitely changed. Even though I was still small and can't remember what I was feeling when I moved here, it still made a big impact to my life. I always wonder "What if I didn't move? What would I be like now?" We didn't have any family members out here. There's practically no place I could go. I don't even have any childhood friends, unless my cousins count. I wasn't used to how my neighbors weren't my cousins. My siblings and I would go over to play almost everyday. Even they changed afterward when we moved. We would do almost everything together. I miss throwing rocks at other people's backyard with them. I miss playing dodge ball in the hallway with them. I miss jumping on the bed with them. I miss acting Captain Underpants plays with them. I miss playing video games with them. I miss biking with them. I miss building our own club house with them. I miss learning with them. I miss playing with them. I miss being with them. I miss growing up with them. I miss them. I miss all of my family members.
I miss my childhood back in Vegas.
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November 11, 2010
Well, I was supposed to take my diagnostic test 2 for my SAT class at 4, but the host didn't even show up. >:l
Well, I was supposed to take my diagnostic test 2 for my SAT class at 4, but the host didn't even show up. >:l
It's So Cold
November 10, 2010
I can’t wait till winter. Puffy jackets, beanies, mittens, ear muffs, scarfs, boots, etc. ♥ Hopefully I’ll get to see it snow.
I can’t wait till winter. Puffy jackets, beanies, mittens, ear muffs, scarfs, boots, etc. ♥ Hopefully I’ll get to see it snow.
Emotional Breakdown
November 10, 2010
It was one of those days where letting everything out is okay. There’s too much emotions bottled up. Personally, one of the best ways to release them is by crying. It just suddenly hit me after school. I had to let it out quietly when I got back to my room and I fell asleep soon afterward. Woke up with a headache and I still have it. I went through quite some mood swings today. I got irritated easily and caused some arguments. I apologize. Maybe part of the reason was because my lack of sleep. Everything is just happening so fast. I can’t catch up; I’m lost. I don’t know what to do, but that doesn’t really make a difference. As much as I want to, it’s not like I can help anyway. There’s a limit. It just stroke me in a flash of time that I’m mentally hurt and shattered. I’ll have to set an adventure soon to find my pieces back. As for now, I have to bare with it and stay strong.
It was one of those days where letting everything out is okay. There’s too much emotions bottled up. Personally, one of the best ways to release them is by crying. It just suddenly hit me after school. I had to let it out quietly when I got back to my room and I fell asleep soon afterward. Woke up with a headache and I still have it. I went through quite some mood swings today. I got irritated easily and caused some arguments. I apologize. Maybe part of the reason was because my lack of sleep. Everything is just happening so fast. I can’t catch up; I’m lost. I don’t know what to do, but that doesn’t really make a difference. As much as I want to, it’s not like I can help anyway. There’s a limit. It just stroke me in a flash of time that I’m mentally hurt and shattered. I’ll have to set an adventure soon to find my pieces back. As for now, I have to bare with it and stay strong.
Chances
November 8, 2010
I keep asking myself “Why didn’t I take that chance?” It was on the tip of my fingers, but I let it slip through. I had it, I know I did. Even God gave me an extra day when I thought that was the end; I had a second chance. Bringing out the shy part of me, I didn’t do anything though. I watched you walk away, but I was hoping I would bump into you sooner or later. Well, that didn’t happen. Somehow, I was given a third chance. I didn’t say anything though, causing me to lose that opportunity. I was trying to play it cool. I ended up at home that night asking “What IF I took those chances?” I was given so many chances, but I didn’t take any advantage. I’m left with shoulda, coulda, woulda.
I keep asking myself “Why didn’t I take that chance?” It was on the tip of my fingers, but I let it slip through. I had it, I know I did. Even God gave me an extra day when I thought that was the end; I had a second chance. Bringing out the shy part of me, I didn’t do anything though. I watched you walk away, but I was hoping I would bump into you sooner or later. Well, that didn’t happen. Somehow, I was given a third chance. I didn’t say anything though, causing me to lose that opportunity. I was trying to play it cool. I ended up at home that night asking “What IF I took those chances?” I was given so many chances, but I didn’t take any advantage. I’m left with shoulda, coulda, woulda.
November 3, 2010
I'll talk less, avoid eye contacts, won't act like we're close, and restrain to walk with you from now on. Not that you'll care anyways. Sorry if there were any misunderstandings. You don't have to worry anymore. I'll keep a distant between us you and I starting tomorrow.
Happy Halloween
October 31, 2010
My day started off moody and not so great. I waited for my friend to get ready for hours and I got tired of waiting, so I just went driving around with my dad for practice and dropped myself off at my other friend's house. We didn't even watch our movies, but played games. Most of the other people that was suppose to come trick or treat with us didn't even come. They bailed. .______. Oh well, I have a great time anyway. Trick or treating was tiring. Haha. I was a Tinkerbell alike fairy, but without wings. I lost it. :[ BUTTTT, I got lots of candies. x] Too bad I'm not going to finish the whole bag. Twix and Twizzlers. <3
My day started off moody and not so great. I waited for my friend to get ready for hours and I got tired of waiting, so I just went driving around with my dad for practice and dropped myself off at my other friend's house. We didn't even watch our movies, but played games. Most of the other people that was suppose to come trick or treat with us didn't even come. They bailed. .______. Oh well, I have a great time anyway. Trick or treating was tiring. Haha. I was a Tinkerbell alike fairy, but without wings. I lost it. :[ BUTTTT, I got lots of candies. x] Too bad I'm not going to finish the whole bag. Twix and Twizzlers. <3
In Spring 2010 a new line of beautiful diamond engagement rings will be released from Disney. Each ring is inspired by one of the classic Disney Princesses.
The rings were designed by Kirstie Kelly who also designs corresponding Disney Princess wedding gowns for brides as well as bridesmaid dresses to go along with each brides dress.
Each engagement ring will have a matching wedding band. The current six rings that have been unveiled are for Sleeping Beauty, Snow White, Cinderella, Jasmine, Ariel and Belle.
October 14, 2010
You came into my life, led me on, ignored my conversations, and walked straight out without saying anything. Thanks for passing by for a stop.
Goodbye…
Stop
October 5, 2010
The more you guys pressure me, the more likely I'm not going to make it happen.
Just sayin'.
The more you guys pressure me, the more likely I'm not going to make it happen.
Just sayin'.
October 3, 2010
It was so fun and intense; I went a bit too crazy. Haha. Everyone was so sweaty afterward. I got so many toe cramps during the dance. Figured out I have bruises, broken toenail, swollen toe, blisters, and soreness the next morning. It's all worth it though.
Science Olympiad
September 30, 2010
So the club sent me this email:
"E-mail test.
I am trying to see if this e-mail has all the correct e-mail addresses in it. Please e-mail me back if you do not get this."
How will the students email him back if they don't even know about this email? I like how the DO NOT is in bold to make it even more eye appealing. Interesting, interesting.
HAHA, FAIL.
So the club sent me this email:
"E-mail test.
I am trying to see if this e-mail has all the correct e-mail addresses in it. Please e-mail me back if you do not get this."
How will the students email him back if they don't even know about this email? I like how the DO NOT is in bold to make it even more eye appealing. Interesting, interesting.
HAHA, FAIL.
Haters
September 30, 2010
They are the ones who help us improve and strive to be better. I want to thank them for that. What I just don't get is why people hate for NO reasons.
For example: I was in PE during middle school playing hockey, and this girl, which I don't even talk to at all, came up to me and asked "Why do act like you're so cool?" I was like wadafudge and didn't really care about her. A few minutes later, she used her hockey stick and slammed it on my butt while I was trying to pick up the puck. I asked her "Why did you hit my ass?!" and she just replied "No I didn't." She was acting all clueless. I wanted to slap her, but I didn't want to start a fight and get in trouble, so I just avoid having any contact with her. I'm not even friends with her nor have I ever talked to her. It all happened out of randomness.
What I can't believe was a couple of weeks later, I found her crying and I actually went up to her and asked if she was okay. Shouldn't I chuckle or at least give a smirk? I had no intentions of doing so. What's surprising was I didn't even know why I bothered with her after that day in PE. I could have walked away from her.
All I have to say is that everyone is bound to have haters.
They are the ones who help us improve and strive to be better. I want to thank them for that. What I just don't get is why people hate for NO reasons.
For example: I was in PE during middle school playing hockey, and this girl, which I don't even talk to at all, came up to me and asked "Why do act like you're so cool?" I was like wadafudge and didn't really care about her. A few minutes later, she used her hockey stick and slammed it on my butt while I was trying to pick up the puck. I asked her "Why did you hit my ass?!" and she just replied "No I didn't." She was acting all clueless. I wanted to slap her, but I didn't want to start a fight and get in trouble, so I just avoid having any contact with her. I'm not even friends with her nor have I ever talked to her. It all happened out of randomness.
What I can't believe was a couple of weeks later, I found her crying and I actually went up to her and asked if she was okay. Shouldn't I chuckle or at least give a smirk? I had no intentions of doing so. What's surprising was I didn't even know why I bothered with her after that day in PE. I could have walked away from her.
All I have to say is that everyone is bound to have haters.
Bipolar Weather
September 30, 2010
Two-three days ago, the weather was 110 degrees. It was burning hot. Today, it rained and there's currently thunder and lightening. It's so loud. I'm scared.
Two-three days ago, the weather was 110 degrees. It was burning hot. Today, it rained and there's currently thunder and lightening. It's so loud. I'm scared.
Our Generation
September 29, 2010
I still remember as a child of the 90's, what I would do most is play outside, watch cartoons, or go over to my cousin's house. The bulk computers doesn't interest me. Thus, I would rarely use it at all. My siblings and I would wake up early every Saturday morning to catch Pokemon episodes. The happiest gifts we received were Pokemon cards or any type of toys. I didn't have to care about what to wear or how to do my hair for school. My mom would have my outfit ready and tie my hair in a ponytail. When my parents leave for work, I would cry each day. I barely got to see my dad as he worked for two jobs. Then, my grandpa would come take care of us until my mom comes home in the morning.
As of what I know, this is a generation of technologies. What do we have here? Microsoft, Apple, cellphones, cameras and even "cleansing" toilets. We don't wake up early anymore to watch cartoons. Instead, we lack sleep due to school, gaming, and being on the computer: Facebook, Myspace, Tumblr, Youtube, etc. Girls tend to wear more appealing and sexual clothes. To be more specific, they're exposing more skin than they should. What have the world become with the usage of illegal drugs? Many underage teenagers have actually tried it. They even started to drink and smoke. Is it because of curiosity or peer pressure that lured them in? Nowadays, people usually text a lot more than calling. Depending on whom, but I rather hear their voice even if I don't like talking on the phone. People could text in super speed. They even made a show on who can text the fastest. The cartoons they broadcast now aren't even the same as before. They're usually filled with sexual-related hidden messages. I found myself watching the television less and less each day. Part of that reason is because of school. I don't know if it's just me, but it seems as if the curriculum and expectations increase each year. I'm assuming that they have higher expectations for each grade level. It's more competitive to get into a well-known college. There are too many music profanity that people listens to. This influences children into thinking it's okay to cuss, even though many people uses swear words anyway. Which sometimes, it could anger others and causes abusive fights when there are already too much bullying and killing that exists. It wasn't until these past years that I've experienced many natural disasters and the possibility of global warming. This generation is just too much, but then again, there's no limit.
In other words, I miss the care-free and simple life in the 90's.
I still remember as a child of the 90's, what I would do most is play outside, watch cartoons, or go over to my cousin's house. The bulk computers doesn't interest me. Thus, I would rarely use it at all. My siblings and I would wake up early every Saturday morning to catch Pokemon episodes. The happiest gifts we received were Pokemon cards or any type of toys. I didn't have to care about what to wear or how to do my hair for school. My mom would have my outfit ready and tie my hair in a ponytail. When my parents leave for work, I would cry each day. I barely got to see my dad as he worked for two jobs. Then, my grandpa would come take care of us until my mom comes home in the morning.
As of what I know, this is a generation of technologies. What do we have here? Microsoft, Apple, cellphones, cameras and even "cleansing" toilets. We don't wake up early anymore to watch cartoons. Instead, we lack sleep due to school, gaming, and being on the computer: Facebook, Myspace, Tumblr, Youtube, etc. Girls tend to wear more appealing and sexual clothes. To be more specific, they're exposing more skin than they should. What have the world become with the usage of illegal drugs? Many underage teenagers have actually tried it. They even started to drink and smoke. Is it because of curiosity or peer pressure that lured them in? Nowadays, people usually text a lot more than calling. Depending on whom, but I rather hear their voice even if I don't like talking on the phone. People could text in super speed. They even made a show on who can text the fastest. The cartoons they broadcast now aren't even the same as before. They're usually filled with sexual-related hidden messages. I found myself watching the television less and less each day. Part of that reason is because of school. I don't know if it's just me, but it seems as if the curriculum and expectations increase each year. I'm assuming that they have higher expectations for each grade level. It's more competitive to get into a well-known college. There are too many music profanity that people listens to. This influences children into thinking it's okay to cuss, even though many people uses swear words anyway. Which sometimes, it could anger others and causes abusive fights when there are already too much bullying and killing that exists. It wasn't until these past years that I've experienced many natural disasters and the possibility of global warming. This generation is just too much, but then again, there's no limit.
In other words, I miss the care-free and simple life in the 90's.
Racism
September 28, 2010
Admit it. We're all racist in some sort of ways during a point of life. Personally, I do say racist/stereotypical jokes. This depends on how well I know that person and knowing whether or not if they get offended though. Some people might categorize you based on stereotypes. I don't get offended easily, but people tends to take advantage of that. At first, I won't mind. I actually laugh along with them. Then, they'll go over the limit continuously where I can't stand them and get so pissed. A common stereotype that annoys me the most is when people say "Ching Chong" repetitively while slanting their eyes. Wadafudge?! I mean, are they seriously saying that? First of all, that's not even a language. NO, we don't understand what you're trying to say. Secondly, that proved how immature and rude you can be. Third, I hope your eyes get deformed and stretched from slanting them. I don't get why they have to act that way. Does it make their race more superior than the others? There's a limit on how much one can tolerate. To have someone of the same race stereotype their own race is a different story. Each race has stereotypes we can make fun of, but let's not try.
Admit it. We're all racist in some sort of ways during a point of life. Personally, I do say racist/stereotypical jokes. This depends on how well I know that person and knowing whether or not if they get offended though. Some people might categorize you based on stereotypes. I don't get offended easily, but people tends to take advantage of that. At first, I won't mind. I actually laugh along with them. Then, they'll go over the limit continuously where I can't stand them and get so pissed. A common stereotype that annoys me the most is when people say "Ching Chong" repetitively while slanting their eyes. Wadafudge?! I mean, are they seriously saying that? First of all, that's not even a language. NO, we don't understand what you're trying to say. Secondly, that proved how immature and rude you can be. Third, I hope your eyes get deformed and stretched from slanting them. I don't get why they have to act that way. Does it make their race more superior than the others? There's a limit on how much one can tolerate. To have someone of the same race stereotype their own race is a different story. Each race has stereotypes we can make fun of, but let's not try.
September 28, 2010
My school sung You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift during the blacklight pep rally! HAHA! :D
Confidence
September 27, 2010
I'm not the type who has a lot of confidence, but yet I do sometimes. I tend to doubt myself too much, contradicting whether I'm right or wrong. The different people I'm with influences the confidence I have. I just feel more energetic and could possibly do a whole lot more than usual when I'm close/comfortable with that person. It's a boost up depending on how I dress that day. If I wear something nice or that I like, I'll feel better. If it's something I chose in a hurry and in which I don't really like, then I'll feel less secure. I go through different levels of confidence. It could increase if I'm doing good in a certain class, or deteriorate knowing the result will be bad. My range of confidence varies throughout the day. I need to maintain a balanced confidence; I can't let others or something affect me.
I'm not the type who has a lot of confidence, but yet I do sometimes. I tend to doubt myself too much, contradicting whether I'm right or wrong. The different people I'm with influences the confidence I have. I just feel more energetic and could possibly do a whole lot more than usual when I'm close/comfortable with that person. It's a boost up depending on how I dress that day. If I wear something nice or that I like, I'll feel better. If it's something I chose in a hurry and in which I don't really like, then I'll feel less secure. I go through different levels of confidence. It could increase if I'm doing good in a certain class, or deteriorate knowing the result will be bad. My range of confidence varies throughout the day. I need to maintain a balanced confidence; I can't let others or something affect me.
School
September 26, 2010
For these past days, my dreams have been about my classes. Out of all the possibilities, why do I dream about school? Give me a break, please.
For these past days, my dreams have been about my classes. Out of all the possibilities, why do I dream about school? Give me a break, please.
Love
September 26, 2010
Family- I love my family. They are my first priority no matter what. Sure, we have some arguments at times, but I'm glad that I have them. My parents would always tell us to hurry, go to college, and move away so they can retire. They say that all the time, but I know they don't really want us to go away,hopefully. Why else would they not want us to study somewhere else or move away? They always say it's too far and no one's going to visit. I'm so glad they're not really strict either. I'm pretty close with my sister. I tell her a lot of secrets. Though, we're kind of mean to each other at times. Well, my brother...I'm mostly mean to him. I don't really show him that I love him. I try, but then he could get annoying. It gets really hard for me sometimes.
Friends- I can't really say I love them, but I'm really grateful for a few of them that helped me through some hardships. Even though I don't talk to some of them now, I really appreciate the times they were there for me.
Relationship- I can't really define this since I've never been in love.
Basically, I just want to say there are many aspects of love, not just relationship wise. It could range from hobbies, food, sports, shopping, or just life. Love is what everyone has in common.
Family- I love my family. They are my first priority no matter what. Sure, we have some arguments at times, but I'm glad that I have them. My parents would always tell us to hurry, go to college, and move away so they can retire. They say that all the time, but I know they don't really want us to go away,
Friends- I can't really say I love them, but I'm really grateful for a few of them that helped me through some hardships. Even though I don't talk to some of them now, I really appreciate the times they were there for me.
Relationship- I can't really define this since I've never been in love.
Basically, I just want to say there are many aspects of love, not just relationship wise. It could range from hobbies, food, sports, shopping, or just life. Love is what everyone has in common.
Sorry
September 25, 2010
Sorry. Playing with you guys was intimidating. It feels as if I was a hindrance, just following and trying to catch up. I get so confused. You guys are so good, yet I suck so bad. I don't think you guys want to play with me anyway. It seems like I was interfering with your real game. You know that feeling when someone says "this is the worst game ever"? Well, yeaa. Maybe I shouldn't play with you guys anymore. Not until I get better, if that's ever going to happen.
Sorry. :l
Sorry. Playing with you guys was intimidating. It feels as if I was a hindrance, just following and trying to catch up. I get so confused. You guys are so good, yet I suck so bad. I don't think you guys want to play with me anyway. It seems like I was interfering with your real game. You know that feeling when someone says "this is the worst game ever"? Well, yeaa. Maybe I shouldn't play with you guys anymore. Not until I get better, if that's ever going to happen.
Sorry. :l
Conversations
September 22, 2010
It feels as if I'm trying way too hard to start/keep the conversation going with some of you. I don't know if it's just me, but I feel uncomfortable about it. I'm putting in so much effort, but you're not even giving half of yours. What do I do? Stop trying and let the silence take over us? Maybe some of you might actually speak up and keep the conversation flowingfor once.
It feels as if I'm trying way too hard to start/keep the conversation going with some of you. I don't know if it's just me, but I feel uncomfortable about it. I'm putting in so much effort, but you're not even giving half of yours. What do I do? Stop trying and let the silence take over us? Maybe some of you might actually speak up and keep the conversation flowing
Fail
September 19, 2010
There wasn't even a blackout. At least not in my neighborhood. I was prepared for it too. I thought it would blackout any second after 10, but nope. Nothing happened. It was a FAIL.
There wasn't even a blackout. At least not in my neighborhood. I was prepared for it too. I thought it would blackout any second after 10, but nope. Nothing happened. It was a FAIL.
Blackout
September 19, 2010
So my friend told me that there's going to be a blackout at 10pm. Lets see if it's going to happen. Haven't experienced one for so long. I'll start my homework that time. :D I can't do anything else. It'll be too early for me to sleep anyway. Maybe I'll be able to focus more. Well, I'm going to shower now before I can't see anything or if the water's going to run out on me halfway.
So my friend told me that there's going to be a blackout at 10pm. Lets see if it's going to happen. Haven't experienced one for so long. I'll start my homework that time. :D I can't do anything else. It'll be too early for me to sleep anyway. Maybe I'll be able to focus more. Well, I'm going to shower now before I can't see anything or if the water's going to run out on me halfway.
September 19, 2010
My sister moved in to her apartment. What a 'great' workout helping her carry all the supplies to the third floor after a couple of back-and-forth trips. I'm going to miss her. :l
Clean and Fresh
September 18, 2010
I finally finished cleaning my room after a couple of hours. It took forever, no joke. I didn't realized how dusty it was. It was filled with so many papers and junks. I have so much more space on my table now. Thank myself for finally being able to clean the garbage room after how many times I procrastinated. I finished the room with a spray of Fabreeze. I'm glad my room is clean and fresh. :D
I finally finished cleaning my room after a couple of hours. It took forever, no joke. I didn't realized how dusty it was. It was filled with so many papers and junks. I have so much more space on my table now. Thank myself for finally being able to clean the garbage room after how many times I procrastinated. I finished the room with a spray of Fabreeze. I'm glad my room is clean and fresh. :D
September 17, 2010
Pretty good day today; happy Friday ! I went shopping after school with my sister. Splurged ourselves with new accessories and lots of food. HAHA. We spent so much money. I need to get a job asap. Hopefully at the mall or as a tutor. x]
September 15, 2010
I stopped myself into further expecting anything from you. I doubt anything is going to happen anyways. You don't notice the details nor do you even care. I don't want anymore disappointments.
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