YOUs

March 12, 2010

To YOU: I don't know what happened, but we barely talk anymore until recently again. What happened to us before? Was it my fault? I don't remember. We were so close, but I guess things could change. I'm pretty glad we're talking again though. :] You actually FINALLY unblocked me today after a month or so. It's funny how you thought I didn't know. I actually noticed within the first two days. Nice try though. Somehow, even though we're talking again, it seems like there's this wall between us. It's like I could only get to this certain point of getting to know/talk to you, but not good enough to where we once were. Let's keep things where it's at so far.
and YOU: I don't feel close to you anymore. I can't seem to tell you everything. You're not the first person I'd be running to. We were so close, but I guess things have changed. You eventually found someone else to slowly start replacing me and I don't seem to fit in. We still talk, but it's just that I don't think it can be like before. I feel like our friendship is starting to drift apart and there's nothing I can do to save it. You probably don't even notice. All we do is talk about the same thing/topic. Sometimes, it's hard for me to even know what to say. I'm not the first you'd be telling everything to anymore and vice versa. It seems that you can't trust anyone no more and my trust of you is also fading. Most of the time, I feel like you're using me and that's the only reason why you still need me here. It benefits you, but not me. How would things go between us? I can't seem to find an answer yet.
and and YOU: I used to always thought I was one of your mains, but I was wrong. I would be the one telling you most of the things, but not you. I don't think I can trust you that much anymore. That's why I stopped telling you most of my stuff. What's the point of me telling you my stories? You tell me nothing. We're only close school-wise, but not outside. You have so many other people before me. What rights do YOU have to be talking shiiiiet about other people when you're doing the exact same thing as that person, except worse? You don't even take my advices. Actually, you couldn't even take your own. I know when you're pretending, but I just don't tell you. Still, I'll act normal and sometimes pull off a fake smile in front of you.
and and and YOU: I'm so glad I met you. You're actually the only one I have no problems with. You're so chill most of the time and you don't give a dam' about anything. That's the good thing about you. You're clumsiness brings you to a clueless state of mind. Haha. You're so silly most of the time, but that just makes you who you are and bring the joy and laughter to everyone. I felt like I was close to you, but somehow, our closeness is different. I tell you things, but there's also a lot of things I don't tell you. Maybe I'm just scared to tell you everything or it's just that if I tell you, you won't even care. During summer breaks, you're different. We don't really talk and you seem like you don't want to talk. You give me simple answers and it feels like you're trying to ignore me. Even though, I can never get mad at you. You're one of the few that just makes me laugh most of the time and can't stay mad at for long. Overall, you're a weird person that I like to be around with.