4th of July

July 10, 2010

Dear B,
Did you know I was disappointed in you that day? I never really thought you would send us home first to be with your friends. I really really really wanted to play fireworks with you and the rest of us, but I guess you didn’t anticipate as much as I did. I was holding in my tears during the car ride back until at night, when I went to bed. Also, did you know that was the reason why my eyelids went retarded-looking the next day? It happens all the time the next morning after I cry. Well, I didn’t really want to say a single word when you decided to drive us back nor did I even ask you why. I don’t want to “interrupt” or “bother” what you were going to do. I was just pretty speechless. That’s it, nothing more. Like you said, you’re grown up already. I trust/believe in what you know you’re doing, but just remember to take care of yourself and be safe. Anyways, I could never get mad at you. It was like nothing ever happened the next day, so don’t worry. I appreciate the time you spent with us these past couple of days though and not ditching us to hang with your friends, even though you wanted to. Thanks for the 5-15 minutes of fireworks that I actually got to play with you since like elementary. Even though I didn’t get to play that much and watch the intense fireworks, I’ll cherish those few moments. Hopefully someday, all of us could play fireworks again like how we used to around 10 years ago. Those times were really fun.
Sorry, I couldn’t say it face-to-face. I wouldn’t really know how to start this conversation. I’m scared my tears would just flow down in front of you. I rather type it here for you to read it instead.
Love,
Maggie ♥